When I started this journey I thought of this as a way to hone my skills to continue my vision of becoming a writer. This not something I am giving up on but approaching it differently. This last year was wrought with changes and realizations and this is just one of them.
Remembering my why is a big reason. I have spent a good portion of the last 15 years reworking who I am to become who others thought I should be instead of staying true to myself. In the process my imagination, my inner child, has been stifled. Pursuing what others feel is best for me, doing what is perceived as the right thing instead of following my heart and passion has lead to road block after road block.
This is not a complaint, I guess more a thank you.
This blog was also away for me to seek validation in what I was doing and how I was doing it, what can I say I am a Leo after all! It was also a way to serve my competitive nature. If others can do it, I can do it better. The rub is my passion and joy in writing and story weaving comes from spontaneity and in sprints. Trying to confirm stifles it.
A part of me knew this, but I ignored it. This last year has taught me a lot, especially if you ignore who you are in your heart you will not succeed.
I will still write my stories, at my speed and with no expectations other then getting the story out of my head and when it is flowing. When I need a space to clear my head I will take pen to paper the old fashion way. Who knows, maybe one of my stories will be published and my memoirs will be highly saught after by future generations.
Happy writing!
Gypsy Green 